Ate way too much today ):

peanut butter banana sandwich (300)
ham sandwich (150)
cereal (100)
some chips, two dumplings, three oreo balls, a spoonful of pasta (600)
1/4 philly cheese steak burger (150)
some fries (100)
7 hot wings (500?)
= 1900

It really didn't feel like much when I was eating it all though. We had a club event, where I ate all the chips and stuff. And then we went out to eat hot wings after. I wish I knew how many calories were really in it all.

I had fun today though. 

I really want to get these tights, but they're like $20 plus $7 shipping ):

middle ground

Someone in class today said there was no such thing as a middle ground. I never objected more. Things just aren't as simple as right or wrong. I never opened my mouth though. But it got me thinking and now I think maybe she's right. Ground is too concrete. The space between two extremes could never be solid.

She said no circumstances could change whether or not an act was right or wrong. I think she's too close minded. But then I realized maybe I was too. Maybe acts are just right or wrong. Stealing is stealing and killing is killing. But I think their results and motives can also be the opposite. In the end, it's never just the act that is factored in. Will the end justified the means? Evidently. It's in the justice system. If killing is wrong, why does the death sentence sometimes serve justice? It's all very complicated and muddy.

The day wasn't too bad.

Intake:
- sandwich for breakfast (125)
- chips during lunch (200)
- sandwich for lunch (125)
- udon and wontons afterschool (350)
- pasta with chicken and broccoli for dinner (500)
= 1300 ish

I know I should eat less.

99 fucking pounds at 4"11.5 ft is fucking fat.

But I digress.

I suppose an introduction is appropriate. My name in Jupiter. I was named after the planet, that bringer of jollity. I am seventeen, a junior in high school in the U.S., an antisocial nerd. Ironically, I'm in a social club though. I'll write about it sometime. I love Harry Potter, specifically Luna Lovegood. I'm pretty nerdy. I like the things I like and for the most part, I like myself because of this.

I want to lose weight though. In a somewhat healthy way. I started a new blog to get myself back on track. I'll be posting most everything, just to keep my mind goal-oriented. Everything will be honest, despite it being embarrassing.

I'll tell you guys something no one knows yet. I have a reformation notebook. I write a goal for each day and strive to complete it. It worked for a while, but I guess I kind of gave up. Even with concentrated and concerted efforts, my motivation refuses to meet me. How do you guys stay motivated?